toots

hi toots,
tonight you did the funniest thing. i was on the computer in the recliner not really paying attention (highly unlikely for me) and all the sudden it sounded like you were drinking something. i looked up and realized that you had grabbed the glass of diet 7-up from the table and were quite successfully drinking it. in fact very little spilled. while i wasn't thrilled at all that you were drinking pop at your young age, the best part was once you saw me, you put the cup down and said "ahhhhh" really loud. it made me laugh out loud. you then clapped your hands and gave that huge-teeth-and everything grin. it was singlehandedly the best part of my day. we actually spent mommy sadie weekend almost- daddy has been CRAZY busy this last week trying to get the 3-D casino out by next week. thursday night after i picked you up, i couldn't figure out why you kept putting your hand in front of your face and taking it away and smiling. it finally occured to me that you were trying to play peek-a-boo with me. daddy had taught you how to do that and now we have great fun with it.
well toots, it seems like we have had some bad luck. with your brother getting stabbed, my car accident, and the emergency room trip last week, i have been reminded over and over agin that life could always be worse. the knife could have been a few mm closer to a major atery. you could have been in my car when the man hit me, and you could have a serious case of RSV or something worse than a really bad cold and an ear infection.
tonight we learned that a good friend/parishoner who was spending time in texas has terminal brain cancer. once again, i'm reminded that life is so short and i really don't have any time to complain about a few late bills or frustrations at work when people around me are in the fight of their lives.
i am so so so lucky to have you has my sweet baby and i don't know where i would be if you weren't in my life. you always know how to make me laugh. you get this very serious look on your face and "talk" but it's not like any other babbling i have ever heard. randomly you will raise your hands so everyone who is around you will yell "so big" you love to point to your nose, my nose, your mouth, and belly. you still give anything you hold huggies and are starting to give kissies again.
my goodness- how could i forget! last week you took your first steps! daddy got it on video and i'm hoping we will be able to load it on here so everyone can see.

you are so special my lovely sweet wonderful baby. thank you for blessing me so much.
love you, mommy